justrun-.

cross country

did a personal best time. hurhur. considering the conditions i've been subjected to, it was a pretty good effort! yeah, sure we all wish we could've done better. but matter of fact is that we did what we could at that time. hell i wish i hadn't run the first half so fast, but there's no guarantee that i would've run the second half fast enough to make up.

mm improved my time by a good 30secs. heh. i think 60secs is just way outta the qtn. gosh, in the last 1k, i got overtaken by like 10 plus people! if not i could've made it to top 20 :( heehee. wth. nevermind. i am not a cross-country runner anyway. didn't train much for it. so it's okay! right? yes it's okay. positive thinking.

was nice to see 2 rgs girls from c div get a medal (: i'm happy for them. it's been so long since rg's xc team has been so strong. c div that is. heh.

was even nicer to see long lost friends like ZIHUA!!!!!! ahhhhh!!!! i miss her so much! her hugs meant so much to me. so did seeing junli and dee (: people i miss so much!

had a good talk with alisa during prize-giving. ahha that girl is just wow. glad we got to talk cos it's cleared my mind up abit. gor's advice has been helping me along too. at the end of the day, it's ultimately my choice, my thoughts, my opinion. finally i think i've sorted it out with my head. now i can't wait for the time to come, the time when all this can be put on the table and solved.

i suppose that it's times like these that really allow you to see who you can truly trust. see who really cares. hope that i am not making a mistake in trusting them. like how i made a grave mistake in trusting mysteryperson last year. caused so much anger and lost of sanity. hahaha.

i hope that i can rest in peace tmr night. cos right now, i'm just too troubled to have a good night's rest. on top of that, i have an undone history essay. hahaha. mr g is the best.

ah okay back to cross-country. i enjoyed the atmosphere. have not been able to experience this kind of scene for quite a bit, since i joined tri. see loadsa people turning up to race against each other, after training like legumes for so many mths. see their fellow schmates cheering like wildboars. and whoever made fun of VS is going to suffer. i think VS has such a COOL SCHOOL SPIRIT (: "why are we so pro..... why are we so pro..." hahah! was also nice to see rj do well.watch them sing the school song (which i do not know how to sing, darn those gender biased people for making the sch song RI's instead of RG's), watch them cheer, watch them take team pictures.

since primary school days (under the influence and inspiration of pam), i have always dreamt that one day my school team can win something like that. you know..a true TEAM effort. even watching hc train..that was cool. ahha but sometimes, we are better off as spectators. because it simply cannot become reality. you don't understand... it's not that. haha it's something else.

omg this entry is so incoherent. ah alright back to tri issues. we should have a team outing/ meal sometime soon! if only we all weren't caught up doing menial tasks such as homework. lol. i miss the team... with everybody mia so often, it's hard to feel the "qi fen" (atmosphere).

alright i'll go try to sleep now. i'm on an endorphin high.. lol. my legs are aching. no 2.4k tmr or else i'll slaughter myself. i'm going to sit at the side and be stoned.

[pat]* decided to runaway-.

put on her shoes at [00:24]

and took [20060413] strides

it's the passion that drives you